Motivation

Sometimes, when you least expect it, you get this strong desire. This urge. This push, to do something that you just have to/want to do out of the clear blue sky. No triggers such as SDN or Old Pre meds or any of those prime time med shows. A 'just because' feeling from within you.

I have to do this. Come hell or high water (I never understood this and frankly I don't even know if I phrased it right) I have to make a go at this. I don't know if I will succeed. All I know is that I have a burst of positive energy that says I must. Most of the time I wallow in self pity and fail in my mind a billion times before even attempting to try. But tonight, right now, I want this. I want to be a Physician.

At this moment, late at night and alone in my living room--there are no maybe's or probably or my personal favorite-I'm not smart enough. But just this small fleeting light in me that I want this bad enough so that fail isn't an option. The pressure cooker is on...and strangely I am giddy with anticipation.

Bring it on pre med.

~Surly