Wrapping Up the Semester

The semester is almost over and finals are headed my way. I have become totally disenchanted with my World's Religion class. It's just so god awful boring. I can't wait for that class to be over--I don't even care if I get a C. Math...well, as much I hate math I'm wishing that I had more time before the final. Maybe an additional 2 weeks so that I can feel fully prepared. Since I'm a sucker for pain and punishment, I have been seriously considering a summer class in more math. Hell, I might even throw a Statistics class in there before I declare an end to these blasted mathematics requirements.

In other news, I have been feeling a bit down about myself. I keep wondering what the hell I'm doing with my life and all of the 'woulda, coulda, shoulda's' that come with the decision that I've made. More often than not, I secretly wish that I wanted something else as badly as I want M.D. Like nursing or some other allied health position. I mean, after all of this and to come what if I'm not cut out for any of it?! What if it effin sucks and I hate it. I'll be in more debt, will accrue massive amounts of resentment, and will be old and bitter...well the last one is totally a given so it doesn't count, but still!

I spent some time with my family this past weekend and it was just what I needed. I love hanging out with my siblings and it was good to not think about how old I am and what I haven't accomplished in these 35 years.

~Surly